What've I been doing for the past few weeks?

I've been busy reading up about diminishing egg reserve and ways/ means to improve the egg quality.

After reading from the various sources, I realised that there's no way the increase the egg quantity since we're borned with a pre-determined qty of follicles but we're able to improve the egg quality and it would be to load up more protein & anti-oxidant health supplement.

Protein to aide in the egg growth and the anti-oxidant is to delay aging so that the body is able to produce the fertility related hormones .........

I'll try to take whey protein, DHEA, COQ10, grape seed extracts, multi-vit, Alpha Lipoic Acid etc prior to my next IVF cycle .......

AF came after 44 days

Last Sunday 24 April, my AF finally came on CD45 ........
The week the AF came, I was extremely tired and sleepy.
Despite having 7 hrs of sleep, I'll still wake up feeling tired as if I've not been sleeping the night before.

Last Sun, went to TCM and she explained that this was due to the residual effect of the high Gonal-F which I jabbed for 12 days in March.
She prescribed a very bitter medication for 5 days consumption to help to expel the Gonal-F residual.

For the 1st 2 days the AF flow was pretty heavy but on the 3rd it was pretty ligh but I was told to complete the medication.

On CD3 (Tue 26 Apr) I went to KKH to have by blood test to check on E2, FSH & AMH.
The clinic also did scanning on my follicle count and they informed that the AMH result will only be availble in about 2/ 3 weeks time.

Walk out from the depression ........

It has been about 2 weeks since I last logged in.......

I've been trying to tell myself that this IVF cycle cancellation may not be a bad thing since God may have worked it out this way as it may not be the right time to have baby or my body is not ready for the invasive ER procedure yet ...........

Maybe God has planed for me to have my baby in a better timing and when my body is in a better condition to conceive ...........

So I wont give up in my quest to have my own baby!

I look forward to my AF to come, then I'll do the blood test to check on my FSH, E2 & AMH so that Dr Loh can help me customise a protocol for me which can yield better result.

Interesting Fertility Blog to Share

This is a very good blog to follow.
http://shrinkingfibroids.blogspot.com/

The author has tried out many means to improve her fertility odds and has also done alot of useful research.

Ovarian Reserve Testing (ORT)

On Tuesday when I went to do a follow-up scan, it was sort of expected that the follicles didnt grow at all.

Dr Loh explained to me that the blood test reviewed that I didnt have indication of good growth hormones and unlikely that the eggs will get stimulated any further.

So he's suggesting that I go for AMH testing to help determine my egg reserve & FSH test before he planned my next cycle treatment.

So when my next mens come, on CD2 or 3, I need to go to KKH to do the above blood test. 
Dr predicted that my next mens will be late since it's I unlike I'll be ovulating in this cycle, so mens should only come in a month's time. 
After my blood test result then I'll see him again to discuss about my next cycle treatment.

He thinks that the next one should be a short protocol where I wont be given any BCP nor Lucrin to suppress my natural hormones.
On D2 of the mens, I should be given stimulant drug for about 12 to 14 days to stimulate the follicles and he think I should be able about 1 or 2 eggs.

I'm rather confused with why I'm being classified as DOR (Diminishing Ovarian Reserve) since my most recent FSH showed 2 and E2 was in satisfactory level.

I've done some research on the DOR & ORT and think that this link is rather easy to understand.
http://www.advancedfertility.com/day3fsh.htm

I looked forward to a successful short protocol cycle.
I'm still hopeful to use my own eggs to produce my babies ...........

Depressed!

I'm very disappointed that despite the regular exercise, TCM, health supplement, egg diet etc, I still didnt respond well in this cycle.

Last Fri scan revealed that I only have 3 follicles which are about "4" which is considered poor for 7 day stimulation.
So I was told to continue with the GF jabs and back on Monday (D11 of GF) to check the progress.
The doc said that if there's no good progress, this cycle will be cancelled.

This morning, I went for the scan and was told the follicles are now about "5" since usually at about day 11, the size should be about "12"....... so this cycle should be cancelled.

I was given another GF jab and told to go back tomorrow to check the scanning again.
I also did AMH blood test to check on the ovarian reserve and if the result showed that my reserve is diminishing, then I should not consider doing IVF and instead to use donors egg ..........

This is very depressing since I've done my best to make this cycle viable and success .......

What have I done wrong?

Deep inside I know that this cycle will be cancelled but am still hoping for miracle ...........

The intial stages have been rather smooth and it's really a shock now that I cant proceed further.


I really want to have baby with RY and is very very curious how our baby will look like with both our genes combination.

Frankly speaking, I've quite a nice features and was a beauty peagent participants back in University days.
Till today, I still managed to maintain my slim figures and stay groomed .........
RY is also rather good looking and is slim and fit too ........
TTC is very tough and IVF is really daunting.
The whole baby making experience has make me a very unhappy person .......

I'll need some time to grieve over this depressing result so dont think will update this blog too soon .........

Tomorrow D8 of GF Jab & Scanning in KKH

Tomorrow being D8 of the stimulation jab, I need to go to KKH for the scan and at the same time let them use the balance GF vial to jab me ..........

I just came back from TCM and she told me to call her tomorrow after my scanning result.

After my scanning, I'll go to airport to catch my flight to Ipoh .........
So I'll need to bring all the jabs (GF & Lucrin with me to the hopsital to bring to the airport.

I hope the stimulation is effective and look forward to good result.

Mood Swing

I'm very very very very tired!
The high GF dosage is making me extremely tired and sleepy ........... so I sleep at about 10pm or earlier now .......... (after this post, I shall zzzzzzzz)

I also realised that when I'm upset, I lost my cool and flare it out loud and fierce!

I dont like what I'm now since I seem to turn into a ugly green monster.

I'll try to control my temper and not to scare people around me.

Stressed Up over IVF and am having Gastric Pain ...........

Altho I keep telling myself to be calm and relax in this IVF cycle, I know subconsciously I'm very stressed up since there're so many uncertainty during the process - worry about missing the dosage of jabs, afriad of jabbing the wrong dosage, afraid that I may misplace GF & Lucrin as they need to be refrigerated, worry about the stimulation result, not sure if the body is responding well etc ...........

Since yesterday, I've been having discomfort in the gastric and I know I'm having the gastritis attack due to stress or diet ..........

Is it because of my egg white diet which give me this problem?

Maybe tomorrow I should try to eat some bread prior to the egg whites as I've been taking the egg in empty stomach .........

I hope I can stay calm and sleep well and take this as a pinch of salt ......

Qing Ming Festival 2010

The Qingming Festival (simplified Chinese: 清明节) Clear Bright Festival, Ancestors Day or Tomb Sweeping Day is a traditional Chinese festival on the 104th day after the winter solstice (or the 15th day from the Spring Equinox), usually occurring around April 5 of the Gregorian calendar (see Chinese calendar).

The Qingming festival falls on the first day of the fifth solar term, named Qingming. Its name denotes a time for people to go outside and enjoy the greenery of springtime (踏青 Tàqīng, "treading on the greenery") and tend to the graves of departed ones.


Qingming has been regularly observed as a statutory public holiday in Taiwan and in the Chinese jurisdictions of Hong Kong and Macau. Its observance was reinstated as a public holiday in mainland China in 2008, after having been previously suppressed by the ruling Communist Party in 1949.
 
But unfortunately, its not a holiday in SG so we've to either do the "tomb sweeping" during weekends or take annual leave from from work.
 
Its strange but somehow before/ during the Qingming festival, the weather would be rather wet and it has been raining heavily in SG for the past few days.
 
In SG to avoid the hugh crowd, we'll usually go before the actual or after the actual day but it has to be within the same month in the Chinese Calendar.
 
Yesterday morning, we've gone to pay respect to our late grandparents whose tables are housed in Ju Shi Lin temple near to River Valley.
 
This coming Fri, we're going back to Ipoh so that we can join his dad to go to Tapah this Sunday for the "ancestor tomb sweeping".
 
We've booked the Firefly air-ticket to depart this Fri and return on Sun; and the air-tix cost us RM1,530 for 2 paxs.
It's very expensive for such a short trip but we think this is a better choice since I'm currently under fertility treatment and should not be stressed up.
 
No doubt driving is cheaper alternative but I may be stressed up due to the long drive, custom jam and worried that RY may fall asleep during the long drive ..........
 
We've to pay such a high air fare as Firefly (subsi of Malaysia Air) is the only airline that flies from SG to Ipoh and there's no domestic flight from KL to Ipoh ...........

Gonal F Side Effects

I've done a quick reseach on the common GF seide effects and think that I could've gotten it as I've bad headache the whole day today, worsent vision .........

http://www.drugs.com/sfx/gonal-f-side-effects.html

Gonal-f RFF Pen Solution


All medicines may cause side effects, but many people have no, or minor, side effects. Check with your doctor if any of these most COMMON side effects persist or become bothersome when using Gonal-f RFF Pen Solution:

Breast pain; discomfort, pain, or mild bruising at the injection site; headache; mild stomach pain or nausea; sinus inflammation; sore throat; stuffy nose.

Seek medical attention right away if any of these SEVERE side effects occur when using Gonal-f RFF Pen Solution:

Severe allergic reactions (rash; hives; itching; difficulty breathing; tightness in the chest; swelling of the mouth, face, lips, or tongue); abnormal vaginal bleeding; calf pain or tenderness; chest pain; confusion; decreased urination; diarrhea; fever; one-sided weakness; severe or persistent stomach pain, upset, or bloating; severe or persistent nausea; severe pelvic or back pain; shortness of breath; slurred speech; sudden, unexplained weight gain; unusual vaginal itching, discharge, or odor; vision changes; vomitting.

Eggs

To help me to produce eggs, I've been eating eggs delligently - egg white to be specific since its high in protein.

On the 1st day of Lucrin jab, I ate 2 egg whites and with the commencement of GF, I take 5.
I hope this egg white diet can help in my IVF process.
For my bb, I'm willing to do anything for them to make my bb dream come true ..............

Eggs are considered a good source of protein and choline.

Some research on Egg Whites:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Egg_white

Egg white is the common name for the clear liquid (also called the albumen or the glair/glaire) contained within an egg. It is the cytoplasm of the egg, which until fertilization is a single cell (including the yolk). It consists mainly of about 15% proteins dissolved in water. Its primary natural purpose is to protect the egg yolk and provide additional nutrition for the growth of the embryo, as it is rich in proteins and also of high nutritional value. Unlike the egg yolk, it contains a negligible amount of fat. Egg whites have many culinary and non-culinary uses for humans

The egg white is approximately two-thirds of the total egg's weight out of its shell with nearly 90% of that weight coming from water. The remaining weight of the egg white comes from protein, trace minerals, fatty material, vitamins, and glucose.[1] The U.S. large egg's white weighs 38 grams with 4.7 grams of protein, 0.3 grams of carbohydrate and 62 milligrams of sodium. The U.S. large egg white contains about 20 calories.[2] Egg white has no dietary cholesterol. Egg white contains approximately 40 different proteins.[3] Below is a list of the proteins found in egg whites by percentage along with their natural functions.[1][4]




54% Ovalbumin - Nourishment; blocks digestive enzymes

12% Ovotransferrin - Binds iron

11% Ovomucoid - Blocks digestive enzymes

4% Ovoglobulin G2

4% Ovoglobulin G3

3.5% Ovomucin

3.4% Lysozyme

1.5% Ovoinhibitor

1% Ovoglycoprotein

0.8% Flavoprotein

0.5% Ovomacroglobulin

0.5% Avidin

0.05% Cystatin

Although egg whites are prized as a source of low-fat, high-protein nutrition, a small number of people cannot eat them. Egg allergy is more common among infants than adults, and most children will outgrow it by the age of five.[16] Allergic reactions against egg white are more common than reactions against egg yolks.[17] In addition to true allergic reactions, some people experience a food intolerance to egg whites.[

1st Gonal-F Jab on 19 Mar

Yesterday was my 1st GF jab and I was really tensed since it seems rather complicated.

I've to ensure the needle is capped properly and then turn the dial to 375iu, then pull out the injection tab and then poke the needle into m tummy and jab, wait for 10 sec then turn the dial to 300iu again (while the needle remains intact) and repeat the same procedure ............

I was glad that I managed to complete the 1st jabbing successfully.

Today will be my 2nd dosage of 675iu and count down to 26 Mar for my day 8 scan and hope for good result.

Lucrin Side Effects

I was hoping that with the discontinuation of BCP, my hot flashes will go away but it actually persists .........

This is due to the Lucrin side effets ..........

I did a research on Lucrin and found that hot flashes is the most common side effects.

Besides hot flashes, I also tend to feel tired easily, constant headache and blurred vision (cant see as clear).
I hope this IVF would be a success and all the sufferings is worth it ...........

http://www.ehow.com/about_5306460_lucrin-side-effects.html

http://www.askapatient.com/viewrating.asp?drug=19010&name=LUPRON

Common Side Effects


Approximately 52 percent of lucrin users report hot flashes, making this the most common side effect of the drug. The retention of fluid under the skin is also common, occurring in at least 8 percent of users. More than 5 percent of patients who take lucrin experience dizziness, pain throughout the body, headache, nausea and vomiting.

Other Side Effects

Lucrin also has the potential to cause a number of other troublesome or annoying, but not dangerous, side effects. Some patients experience gastrointestinal side effects from the drug, such as diarrhea and loss of appetite. Nervous system effects like anxiety, tingling in the extremities, forgetfulness, sour taste and insomnia as well as fever and fatigue are also possible while taking lucrin. Other possible side effects of lucrin include breast tenderness in women and impotence in men.

Allergic Reaction

Though rare, lucrin has the potential to cause serious allergic reactions in some patients. The first signs of an allergic reaction are often the formation of hives anywhere on the body and itching around the mouth and lips. Without medical attention, the reaction often progresses to more dangerous symptoms, such as swelling of the lips and throat or difficulty breathing. If you experience any signs of an allergic reaction at any point while using lucrin, seek prompt emergency medical care.

Risks

In addition to minor side effects and the risk of interactions, lucrin has the potential to cause serious medical complications. In some cases, lucrin has been linked to cardiovascular problems, including the formation of blood clots, inflammation of veins, heart attack and irregular heartbeat. Lucrin sometimes causes difficulty and irregular breathing as well as gastrointestinal bleeding. Serious neuro-sensory effects of lucrin include blurred vision and numbness.

Considerations

In some cases, lucrin injections cause an initial worsening of the symptoms of the illness or disease. Doctors also limit the use of lucrin in patients who have impaired kidneys as without proper urination, levels of the drug can build up in the body and become toxic. Lucrin is not typically prescribed to treat children as there is not enough information to ensure that pediatric usage does not lead to long term side effects. Lucrin injections may cause damage to the fetus and typically are avoided during pregnancy.

Proceed to Stage 2 - Gonal F jabs on 19 Mar & onwards

This monring I was at KKH at 7.30am for my blood test and ultra sound scan.
I managed to do my blood test at 7.30am but the scanning room only starts at 8am but cos the nurse misplaced my appointment card, I only get to do the scanning after 3 patients ......

My lining was 5.5 and was considered good so the nurse gave me my prescription to let me buy Gonal F to stand-by for the jab for this Fri onwards.
But I was told to wait for their call this afternoon to inform me about the blood test on the E2 suppression, which they did inform me at about 4pm that my test result is good is able to proceed to stage 2 on 19 Mar.

The Pharmacy only opens at 8.30am so I gotta wait till its open to get the medication then return to UVF clinic to learn how to jab myself.

I didnt take leave from work so gotta quickly rush to office at 9.30am, fortunately RY is with me to drive me there, else I'll reach office later then 9.30am ............

So from Fri onwards, I've to jab Lucrin as well as GF, so it means I gotta wait up 10 mins earlier for the preparation.

Next Fri 26 Mar, I'll be going to the clinic to check on the no. of follicles ........... I hope I can have good results and produce many & good quality eggs ......... also hope that all the eggs fertilise successfukky & beautifully ...........

RY also gotta start taking his anti-biotics from Fri onwards for 7 days ...........

For my last 2 cycles, the dr put me on Puregon but it seems like now they change to Gonal F (GF).

As I dont respond well to puregon in the last 2 cycles, the dr put me on a very high GF dosage - 675iu per day ...... and it cost me >$600 for 1 tub which contain 900 iu...........
The total cost for my treatment is going to be SGD10k to SGD12K and I can only get SGD2.7K grant from Govt since RY is permanent resident, also I can only utilise SGD4K from medisave since this is the 3rd attemps using CPF.

This BB quest is costing us alot of money but it's worth every cents since we're pursuing our dream to make it into a reality ............

Pls wish us all the Best!
May God bless us!!

Tomorrow Baseline Blood Test and Scanning - Lucrin Day 15

Tomorrow 17 Mar (Wed) morning, I'll be going to KKH to do BT to check on my E2 level and also scan no. of existing follicles and the doc shall confirm if I can move on to stage 2 to do puregon jab ..........

Somehow I think I'm rather worried about the test result.
I hope the test result is good and can move on .........

I shall update tomorrow after my test result is out.

Sat 13 Mar = CD1 on Lucrin day 11

This morning AF came on CD26 of last cycle and Day 11 of Lucrin jab.

I thot my mens should only come on Mon 15 Mar which is CD28 due to the BCP pills .......... not sure why it came early.
Maybe I was stressed since RY was out-station for the last 3 days and I didnt rest well.
But my usual cycle is 26 days so maybe it just normal to come on CD26.

I'll be going to KKH for my blood test & scanning coming Wed 17 Mar to check if my hormone is suppressed enough to move on to stage 2 = Puregon stage.

Husband should be Participative in the IVF Journey

This morning RY went off to Penang for a 3 days biz trip and will be back on coming Fri.

So it means I'm alone now at home surfing internet while waiting for the laundry to be ready (just put them in the washing machine).

Actually RY should be going on this trip next Wed to Fri but because I need to do my baseline scan next Wed and possibily doing the 1st puregon jab on Fri, which means I gotta go to the hospital twice, so I requested for RY to shift his travel dates.

Although this is my 3rd IVF fresh cycle, I still hope that RY can be with me during those critical day of blood test, scanning etc, this make me feel that he's participative in this IVF journey.

I think its very important for both husband & wife to be involved in the fertility journey and not let wife feel that she's doing this by herself.

During IVF, the wife is the one who suffer physical pain (blood test, jabbing etc) and emotional pain (she's worried about the progress and body response to the medication etc), so the husband should be supportive to show the wife that he cares ...........

So before you embark on this IVF treatment, pls have a serious discussion with your husband to get a mutual understanding of each others' expectation on the roles & responsibility and set the an appropriate standard.
This is to avoid any subsequent disappointments on the husband's less participative involvement. 

Its important to stay calm, relax and cheerful during IVF, so wife should try to voice out her concern to husband so that he knows how he can help.

Last Day of BCP!

Hurray!
Today is the 21st day = last day of the BCP pill!!

To be frank I've been suffering for the past 20 days due to the side effect of BCP.
The side effect is mainly hot flashes which make me break into sweats out of sudden and the next moment I'll be frozen as my temp suddenly went down.
This is very disturbing in the middle of the night.
When the hot flash attacks, I'll kick away the blanket but once its gone, I'll search for the blanket frantically .........

I'm just glad that today being the last day of the pill and I hope I wont have any hot flushes after tonight ..........

Do you've the same side effect when you're on BCP?

Will you forgive your husband if he cheated on you?

This morning I saw the news headline about SG famous director - Jack Neo's scandalous affair with a young lady - so young that she can be his daughter (he's 50 and she's 22) ........

Channel NewsAsia - Model exposes affair with S'pore director Jack Neo - channelnewsasia.com
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/entertainment/view/1042060/1/.html

I'm rather shocked since Jack had projected a family guy image and had many times expressed his love for his family and thanked his wife for being his life support .............

Mrs Neo had stand up for her husband and openly announced that she had forgiven her husband of 27 years ...........

Why cant men resist temptation of the sweet young things?
When they engage in such an affair, do they ever consider the hurt & betrayal they've inflicted on their wife, who have gone thru think & thick with him ......... she was once a beautiful young thing and chose to settle down with him when he was penniless???

I hope that RY will remain faithful to me.
I dont think I can forgive him if he ever cheated on me ......... I hope that day will never come to make me make such a decision .........

What else can I do to boost my pregnancy success rate?

I'm not sure what else can I do to ensure this IVF is a success, the pregnancy is viable and delivery of my healthy bb smoothly ..........

I'm under acpuncture, TCM herbs, health supplement, healthy diet, frequent exercise and also visit the temple to pray to the Goddess of Mercy to grant me my baby wish ........ I think I may seriously consider driving to Tapah in Malaysia (which is 6 hrs drive from SG) to pay respect to RY's ancesstors during this Ching Ming festival ........

Being a highly educated modern women, it could be seen as ridiculous to resort to such desparate measures - praying for miracle, which is not scientifically proven.

But if you've been thru that kind of pain as me, it may not be difficult to understand why ..........

For the sake of having my own precious baby or babies, I'm willing to give all means a try.

I hope who ever who happens to drop-by my blog can also help me say a prayer ......... pray that my (as well as other women in similar quest) quest can be a success .........

May the Heavenly Divine hear our prayers and grant us our wishes .............

SQ KrisFlyer Mileage Redemptions

I used to travel frequently on job to Europe & Japan in my ex-job, almost every month I'd go out-station for about 2 weeks, so I've accumulated substantial mileage and hotel privileage points, which enable me to redeem free air-tickets and hotel stay .............
I missed those days cos' I get to see the world ......... I'm rather proud that at my age, I've travelled to Europe, Brazil and almost the Asia Pacific countries (except NZ) .........
But I've never been to USA & Taiwan which are common countries........ I've yet to get the stamp on my passport!

I'm pretty familiar with Tokyo and I've brought RY to tour around vicinity around Tokyo ........ last April, we went to Hakone ............

Since 2 years ago, I'd switched to my current job which have minimum flying to try to concentrate in TTC.
But it also mean that I've mean down graded to Silver status ..........

March till June this year, I've quite a substantial mileage which will expire monthly so I gotta make a decision to either redeeem the air-tix for RY & my use or help others to get free air-tix.

The rough estimation of my IVF schedule show that I should be undergoing ER & ET in early April and 2ww should complete in end April.
If my pregnancy is BFP, then my EDD should be about end Dec ..........

In view of the above schedule, RY and myself think that we should not risk by travelling since this would be a very precious baby.

So I've redeemed the mileage for my sis & her family to go to HK during June schoold holiday.
Despite the redemption for sis' family, I still have sufficient points to bring RY to near-by places for short vacation in 2011!

Wedding Anniversary Roses

Last Sat (27 Feb) was my customary wedding anniversary.
RY got me a bouquet of red roses for me and each morning he'd change fresh water, cut the stem and re-arrange the flowers.

It's nice to receive the roses from RY ......... during my birthday, ROM & customary wedding anniversary.
Oh none for V-day since it's cut-throat price so not advisable to spend that kind of money.

I hope he'll continue to send me roses during the 3 occassions mentioned above till we aged ..........

Tomorrow is 1st Day of Lucrin Jab

Tomorrow I'll wake up early at 6.30am to get ready for my jab.
Usually I'll wake up at 6.45am during weekday but tomorrow, I must try to get myself up 15 mins earlier.

I also went to get Blackmores Conceive Well Gold to commencemence the daily consumption tomorrow too .......
So it means I'll discard the existing health supplements to just take the TCM hearbs, Conceive Well, DHEA and the Cordycepts pill.

I plan to take the supplemets in the following order:

Cordycepts and the Kidney pills = 2 each :  Early morning before food
DHEA = 1 pill :  After shower
Blackmores Conceive Well = 1 tab + 1 cap each :  After breakfast
TCM herbs = 2 packs :  Reach office settle down
Brands Chix Essence & Schisandra/ Sesamin = 2 tabs each :  After lunch
DHEA = 1 pill :  Just before I leave office at about 5pm
TCM hearbs = 2 packs :  After dinner
BCP = 1 pill :  Before bed

Note:  Need to check with TCM if I can continue to take the Schisandra/ Sesamin tabs this Sun ..........

TCM Medication for IVF

After much discussion with RY, we've decided to go ahead with the TCM medication for this IVF cycle.
We were thinking for the last 2 cycle, we didnt take an TCM so this time we should give it a try to boast the egg and lining quality to ensure a viable pregnancy.

The TCM doc give me 28 oackets of yellow powder to be consumed for 7 days - 2 packs morning and another 2 in the evening.

This Wed will be my 1st Lucrin jabs and it means the commencement of my needle poking journey!

Today 27 Feb

Last night I slept rather late at about 1.30am since we attended company CNY dinner and came home about 12 mid-night.

Not sure what happened but I was awoke at 5.30am .......
I was wondering why and then I realised it must be due to today being 27 Feb ........
It's mixed feeling ........ I think I must be self-blaming for the lost of Angelina, at the same time worried about the new IVF cycle's outcome as I'm commencing stage 1 in March.

I waited till the sky is bright and go for my morning exercise and then went to get breakfast for RY.

We also went to KKH to collect my Lucrin since gotta start stage 1 jabbing on 3 March.

27 Feb is a Memorable Date ..........

This Sat is a memorable date .......... cos its 27 Feb and last year the same day, I did a D & C procedure as my dearest Angelina's hearbeat stopped .........

27 Feb is also my wedding anniversary ........... not sure how I'd feel that day or whether to celebrate or to grieve over my loss ...........

Important Key Supplements for Fertility

This is extracted from:  http://www.natural-health-for-fertility.com/supplements-for-fertility.html

The following is a list supplements for fertility that support reproductive health and that when integrated to a healthy diet and life style can greatly increase your chances of getting pregnant quickly:


Vitamin C

Vitamin C is a water soluble anti-oxidant and protects fat soluble vitamins like vitamin A and E from being oxidized. So it works best when taken in combination with other anti-oxidants. Women should avoid high dose of vitamin C because it can dry up cervical fluid, preventing sperm from reaching the egg. Vitamin C improves hormone levels and increases fertility in women with luteal phase defect. The recommended amount in women is less than 500 mg. Among all the vitamins for women, Vitamin C is one of the most important because it helps absorb Iron. Make sure you look for a natural source of Vitamin C like from Acerola berries.

Vitamin E

Vitamin E is essential for fertility and reproduction. The recommended amount is 400-800 IU per day. Talk to your doctor prior to starting Vitamin E, particularly if you are currently taking aspirin or other blood thinners. Vitamin E is also very useful to women as it seems to prevent miscarriages.

Note: Make sure your vitamin E comes from a 100% natural form of vitamin E that is in the all natural d-alpha Tocopherol form. Synthetic forms of vitamin E are not well assimilated and metabolized by the body. Vitamins for fertility should always come from natural sources.

Vitamin A

Vitamin A is essential for the utilization of proteins, minerals, and other vitamins. The best sources for Vitamin A can be found in Cod Liver Oil. Vitamin A has important antioxidant properties, and the consequences of Vitamin A deficiency during pregnancy can be devastating. Vitamin A is essential for healthy eyes in babies. Do not take high doses of vitamin A if you are trying to get pregnant because it can cause birth defects. Please, consult with a qualified nutritionist. Supplements for fertility often contain Beta-carotene, which does not carry any risks. When vitamin A is in the form of retinol you should not take more than 2,500-5,000IU. It has been found that retinol can cause birth defects if taken in excess of 10,000IU a day during pregnancy. Retinol should not be consumed before conception in high doses. Many creams contain retinol. This compound enters your body through your skin and it accumulates in your liver. Check your cosmetics!

Beta Carotene

Beta Carotene is a pigment present in vegetables like sweat potatoes and carrots and is converted into vitamin A in the human body. Beta carotene is present in high concentration in the corpus luteum and is a key supplement in the regulation of hormones and women's reproductive cycle.

Vitamin B Complex

When people think about vitamins for women, the B vitamins is what comes to mind first. Take a good B-complex supplement that supplies 25 to 50 milligrams of each of the major B vitamins daily. These vitamins for women are vital in restoring hormonal balance. Vitamin B6 can help women who are having problems conceiving, as this vitamin helps balance progesterone levels. Make sure you take all the vitamin of the B complex to prevent imbalances from occurring as these vitamins are meant to work together.

Folic Acid

This is one of those supplements for fertility and pregnancy that you cannot go without. Folic acid is known to prevent spina bifida in your future baby. This nutrient is very important to take before becoming pregnant and through pregnancy. Folate is just one B vitamin of the B-complex and should be taken in conjunction with Vitamin B12 especially. All the others B vitamins that make up the B-Complex are necessary to insure optimum health. The recommended dosage for folic acid is from 400 mcg up to 1 mg a day.

PABA

Para-aminobenzoic acid or PABA is part of the B-Complex family. This compound is essential in increasing pregnancy in women with mineral and vitamins deficiencies. To treat infertility, the recommended dosage is 400mg a day.

Essential Fatty Acids

Essential fatty acids, found in black currant seed oil, borage oil, evening primrose oil, and flaxseed oil, are required for normal glandular activity. EFA are especially important for women who are following a low-fat diet. Take 500 to 1,000 milligrams of any of these oils two or three times daily.

Omega 3 EFAs

Omega 3 Fish oil is very important for the female reproductive wellness. Omega 3 fish oil helps maintain a healthy hormonal balance, aids in infertility by increasing the quality of fertile mucus and its production, prevents miscarriages and pregnancy complications. It also helps brain, eye and nervous system development in the foetus during gestation. When taken during breastfeeding, Omega 3 fish oil helps prevent postpartum depression and contributes to increase IQ in breastfed babies. 

Flaxseed Oil

Flaxseed oil is a wonderful food supplement to promote fertility. This is an important essential fatty acid that can be safely taken during pregnancy and during the second half of your cycle if you are trying to conceive. It is used to treat menstrual cramps, infertility and endometriosis. Flaxseed oil contains hormone-balancing lignans and plant estrogens, called phytoestrogens, that help stabilize a woman's estrogen-progesterone ratio. In addition, the essential fatty acids in flaxseed oil can inhibit prostaglandins, hormone-like substances that, when released in excess amounts during menstruation, can cause the heavy bleeding associated with endometriosis. DHATaking docosahexaenoic acid (DHA) prior to conception ensures optimum brain development. DHA is an EFA that helps with the formation of the brain in utero. It also has important anti-inflammatory properties helping decrease dysmenorrhea and endometriosis. Recommended daily dose is 400mg. Should be taken with vitamin E.

Mineral Supplements for Fertility

Calcium

Among all the vitamins for women, calcium is definitely a very important one especially in preparation for conception because it helps build up calcium stores needing during pregnancy. Calcium also helps to alkalize the body, which is favorable to the sperm and fertilized egg. For optimal health, women need at least 1,500 mg of calcium a day.

Zinc

The most important function of zinc is to play a role in the synthesizes of nucleic acids DNA and RNA, which are essential during cell division, tissue repair and embryo development. It is important to have adequate zinc during pregnancy to prevent miscarriages, low birth weight and birth defects. The recommended daily dose is 25-30 mg.

Chromium

Chromium is the major mineral involved in insulin production, a lack of this mineral interferes with glucose metabolism. Chromium supplementation can improve glucose tolerance factor related to polycystic ovary dysfunction. The recommended dosage is 400-600 mcg per day.

Iodine

Iodine is a very important mineral that supports thyroid functions. A lack of this mineral in your diet can lead to low thyroid function and decreased fertility.

Iron

Many multi vitamins for women contain iron because iron is considered essential as a blood building nutrient that helps increase fertility by supporting ovulation. The best form of iron is from a whole food supplement. Synthetic versions tend to be constipating. Women need around 30 mg if deficient. Do not take iron with calcium. Iron is best taken separate from your other vitamins.

More Key Supplements for Fertility

L-Arginine

L-Arganine is an amino acid important blood flow to the uterus, ovaries and genitals. It is used in women to create a healthy environment in the uterus for embryo implantation. It increases the quality of cervical mucus increasing the production of stretchy, egg-white-like fertile mucus.

Lactobacillus acidophilus

Many women suffer from Candida infestation. Some do not even know they do. Taking acidophilus supplementation every day will help control Candida overgrow, but also prevents yeast infection during pregnancy and post partum. Many cases of vaginal thrush during pregnancy develop into oral thrush in newborn babies. This can be prevented simply by taking acidophilus supplementation. Please do!

Selenium


Selenium is an antioxidant that helps to protect your body from highly reactive chemical fragments called free radicals. For this reason, selenium can prevent chromosome breakage, which is known to be a cause of birth defects and miscarriages. Good levels of selenium are also essential to maximise sperm formation. Blood selenium levels have been found to be lower in men with low sperm counts.


Evening Primrose Oil
Evening primrose oil is more of a herbal product, but it is often listed as part of important vitamins for women. It is commonly used to alleviate pre-menstrual syndrome, It also helps in the production of fertile quality cervical mucus. If you are trying to get pregnant do not take Evening primrose oil after ovulation because it can cause uterine contractions. Make sure you are charting your fertility signs to know when you are ovulating. The recommended dosages are 1500 - 3000mg per day.

Digestive Enzymes

Many people suffer from impaired digestion and do not assimilate nutrient effectively. Taking digestive enzymes ensures full utilization of all nutrients


Summary Table: Nutrients for You & Your Partner

Folic acid 400mcg 400mcg
Zinc 30mg 30mg
Selenium 100mcg 100mcg
Fish oil 1000mg 1000mg
Vitamin B6 up to 50mg up to 50mg
Vitamin B12 up to 50mcg up to 50mcg
Vitamin E 300-400iu 300-400iu
Vitamin C 1000mg 1000mg
Vitamin A up to 2300iu -
Manganese 5mg 5mg
L-arginine - 300mg
L-carnitine - 100mg
L-Taurine - 100mg

Still Fat!

After 5 mths of exercise, I'm still 50kg!
I've been running about 3 to 4 times weekly (except when it's ovulation period till CD 1 of the next mens).
So effectively 2 weeks jog and 2 weeks break ...........

Why no further weight lost?
I will try to lose some weight by end March, and shall update then!

Quit my Job?

Today RY asked me to quit my job to concentrate on my fertility treatment.

I told him I'm all ready to quit as long as he's ready to support me and give me allowance which he agrees, but it'll be just a token sum.
I told him I'll resign any time once I think my work is too hectic to cope .........

I think I wont resign till my baby is born to be a SAHM as I believe in caring my own baby.
A healthey & normal baby is the best gift to all Mother and Mother's tender loving care is the best gift for all babies .........

To be honest, I'm worried of over dependence single source of income since SG is a rather expensive country to live, some say it's a place "where you can die but not fall sick"!

Hey, dont think I'm kidding, many fellow sporean will agree with the above statement.

But having said that, I'll still quit for the sake of my baby!
At this moment, motherhood is the most important to me and money & career is secondary with the least priority ..........

TCM Updates on 21 Feb

Yesterday I went to the TCM and updated about my late cycle (mens at CD37) and the commencement of the birth control pills.

She aked if I'd like to take any chinese medication now till completion of IVF cycle and she wanted me to make the decision as she knew that KKH doesnt endorse the use of chinese medication.

She said I've to be comfortable with my own decision since IVF is a very stressful journey and she doesnt want to add unnecessary stress to me should I consume chinese herbs (what if the stimulation response is poor this time and I may blame myself for taking the herbs).

She was an experienced fertility doc/ surgeon in China and its common and part of the IVF protocol there to do acpuncture and medication concurrently before/ during & after IVF treatment.

After much consideration, I think I wont take the medication for fear of unnecessary worries on the stimulation impact.

The TCM kept telling me not to be stressed since I've done what I can and should let nature take its cause.

To be frank, would you not be worried after 3 successful pregnancy but end up in miscarraiges?

But true enough, I think I should/ must try to relax.
Wish me luck!

Praying to the Ancestor

This CNY as I was in Ipoh, I told RY that I'd like to pay respect to his late granny (MIL's mum) since her tablet is placed in Ipoh's temple.

So on Day 1 of CNY, the whole family (PIL, BIL, RY & myself) went to the temple to pray to the late granny.

We ernestly pray that she'll bless us with an offspring to RY's family .........

Actually the correct way should be to pray to FIL's parents since we chinese believe in carrying the family line (the father family name) ........... but it's rather challenging since the late FIL's parents' grave are in Cameron ......... maybe this Ching Ming we can try to cooincide to drive back to Cameron with PIL, but subject to our working schedule.

According to MIL, this was what she did when she was trying to get preggy 30 yrs ago and upon praying to the husband's father ancestor, she got preg about a month later.

I hope the late ancestors do understand our wish and kindly grant it to us ............

Interesting Fertility Blog to Share

Hi

I happened to come across this Fertility Blog and find it useful to share and for permanaent referencing.

http://waywardstork.blogspot.com/

Fertility Food

Fertility Food:


Pineapple - Contains bromelain which can act as a blood thinner, that can increase blood flow to the uterus. Bromelain is found in fresh pineapple, specifically in the core. Pineapple also contains selenium that helps to thicken the uterine lining and promote a healthy womb lining which aids with implantation.

Brazil nuts -- A top source of selenium, a vitamin that helps keep sperm cells healthy while also helping sperm motility and quality. Brazil nuts are also a good source of vitamin E, an antioxidant that helps protect sperm cells against free-radical damage. Brazil nuts also help with implantation and to thicken the uterus lining.

Yams - Wild yams are said to be a fertility superfood that have also been linked with multiple births. A tribe in Africa whose diet consists mostly of yams was recently found to have exceptionally high rates of twins and multiple births. Yams are thought to contain chemicals that stimulate hyperovulation, increasing your chances of conceiving.

Maca - A fertility superfood from Peru which helps to balance the hormones, increase egg health, increase progesterone in the body, increase sperm count and health, and is a tonic for the endocrine system.

Royal Jelly - A fertility superfood which is said to increase egg health, quality of egg, and general fertility. It is rich is vitamins, calcium, iron, amino acids and immune stimulating properties. Interestingly, royal jelly is the food that is fed to the queen bee which is what makes her the queen bee. She goes on to live 6 years and lays up to 2000 eggs per day. Other bees live less than two months.

Bee Propolis and Bee Pollen - Two fertility super foods that are rich in nutrients to help the immune system, and it also helps women who have endometriosis.

Whole grains - Whole grains such as oats, brown rice, whole wheat and quinoa are complex carbohydrates that contain an abundance of B and E vitamins that are essential for cellular reproduction, hormonal balance and the production of healthy ova and sperm. Women should be sure to eat lots of oatmeal.

Oily Fish - Oily fish such as salmon, mackerel and sardines are the best source of essential fatty acids, omega-3 and omega-6 which play an important role in regulating reproductive functioning, improving blood flow and enhancing sperm quality and mobility.

Full Fat Dairy - Research has found that women who eat at least one portion of full fat dairy a day are significantly less likely to suffer from fertility problems that those who eat half fat or non dairy options. Whole dairy is a great source of calcium which is important in the development and maintenance of the nervous system, bones and blood. Great sources are whole milk, whole yogurt, cheese, ice cream. Have fun eating up!

Olive Oil -- Provides a rich source of vitamin E which is a powerful antioxidant and an essential fertility nutrient for both men and women as it improves the viability of sperm and helps to regulate both ovulation and the production of cervical mucus and healthy hormone functioning.

Garlic - Contains an abundance of fertility boosting nutrients which enhance male fertility and help prevent the chromosome breakage that may play a role in early miscarriage. Garlic also contains vitamin B6 which helps to regulate hormones and strengthens the immune system.

Blueberries - A superfood loaded with antioxidants. They are a natural disease fighting food, high in fiber, and contain a potent dose of proanthocyanidins beneficial for cognitive function, cardiovascular, and reproductive health.

Avocados - One of the most potent antioxidants and disease fighting foods available.

Green tea -- This one is controversial, because it contains caffeine, which is a fertility no, no. But, if you are so inclined to have a cup, this miracle tea contains antioxidants useful for cancer protection and, if taken regularly, can help to lower cholesterol, improve blood sugar balance and increase your energy and fertility.

Wild Fresh Salmon -- A miracle food that is extremely high in essential fatty acids. All of the cell membranes in the body are comprised of fatty acids and our brain is over 70% fatty tissues. These fats are crucial for a healthy mind, memory, blood pressure regulation, and fertility enhancement.

Raw Pumpkin & Sunflower Seeds - A great food for male fertility, as they contain high levels of zinc and essential fatty acids which are vital to healthy functioning of the male reproductive system. These seeds have been shown to help with male fertility. It is recommended that a man with a low sperm count eat 1/4 cup a day.

Almonds & Walnuts - these raw nuts are rich in healthy oils, zinc, selenium, and vitamin E that can increase sperm and egg quality.

Flaxseed - A miracle food that in known for it's cancer protective ability, along with providing a good source of fiber and essential fatty acids that will aid fertility.

Lean Red Meat - Lean red meat is a great source of iron which helps to prevent anemia, decreases the risk of ovulatory infertility and plays a role in the production and function of red blood cells. Red meat is also a good source of vitamin B12 which is essential in the maintenance and development of the nervous system.

Honey - Honey has been used to enhance fertility throughout history as it is incredibly rich in the minerals and amino acids that nourish the reproductive system and stimulate ovarian function.

Whey protein powder - Getting enough protein in your diet can have a huge effect on fertility. If you do not get enough protein in your diet, consider a protein powder that is organic or raised without hormones and antibiotics, and the protein source should never be soy.

Spirulina - A tiny aquatic plant that has more protein than soy, more Vitamin A than carrots, more iron than beef, and is easy to digest.

Spinach - Spinach and other leafy greens are an excellent source of folic acid which is important in optimizing sperm production, facilitating regular, healthy ova production and helping to prevent neural tube defects during early pregnancy. It is also a great source of iron and vitamin C which helps to enhance sperm quality by protecting the DNA stored within it from damage.

Oysters -It is the abundance of zinc that gives it its fertility boosting qualities. Zinc is often considered to be the most important fertility nutrient as it has been shown to help with both healthy sperm and egg production.

Chillies - Have been known to increase the flow of blood around the body, ensuring that the reproductive system gets a healthy supply. Chillies also stimulate endorphin production which means more fertility boosting, stress releasing, happy hormones circulate around your body. But don’t eat them after ovulation/transfer.

Red, Orange, & Dark Geen Vegetables - Getting enough vegetables is important for boosting overall reproductive health.

Citrus Fruits- Contain folic acid and can help with fertility.

Legumes (beans, peas, lentils, garbanzo)-- A good source of protein that can aid with fertility.

Eggs - High in selenium to help create a healthy uterus for implantation. Also a great source of protein to help with egg and sperm quality.

Quinoa -- A superfood that is a great source of protein that is linked to fighting cancer and increasing fertility.

2 Liters of Filtered Water Per Day(preferably not bottles) -- It should be filtered and clean to help flush out toxins from the body and increase general reproductive health. Plastic bottles could have PCB chemicals that leak into the water and contribute to cancer and low fertility.

** Remember to take a prenatal vitamin daily with extra folic acid.

** Try to buy organic wherever possible, because chemicals in non-organic foods have been linked to infertility. All vegetables and dairy should be organic. Fish should be wild, chicken should be free-range or organic, all red meats should be grass fed or organic, All grains should be whole and naturally grown.
 
Fertility Food No-no's:


No Regular Bananas -- If you eat bananas, which is a good thing, you must buy organic. There is pretty clear evidence that a common agricultural chemical used in growing bananas effects sperm morphology and motility---to the point of sterilizing farm workers. The chemical is absorbed into the growing fruit, so peeling it doesn't help. So make sure your bananas are organic men!

Cut out all Alcohol -- Alcohol can reduce your fertility by up to 50%.

Cut out Caffeine -- Caffeine in coffee, tea, cola, and chocolate has been shown to reduce male & female fertility. As little as one cup of coffee a day can cut your chances of conception in half.

Cut out Junk Food, Processed Foot and Saturated Fats -- This speaks for itself, but you need to be sure that your body is gaining nutrients from food, not empty calories.

Do Not Diet -- Even though it's tempting to want to fit into those new jeans, diets could be counterproductive to fertility.

Decrease Sugar -- Refined sugars not only make you gain weight but can disrupt your body's blood sugar levels. They will initially give you energy but later on you will suffer from an abrupt crash, and even more fatigue.

No Artificial Sweetener -- Although there has been a great deal of debate, studies have found that artificial sweeteners, like aspartame, may be linked to cancer and decreased fertility.

Watch your Herbal Supplements: Some people swear by herbs, but many doctors feel that you should cut all herbs while on fertility medications, because they can interfere with the process. This includes herbal teas, even chamomile. Instead try steamed milk, hot lemon with water, or apple cider!

After Ovulation/Transfer avoid Fish: Don't eat sushi or any raw fish. Avoid fish that have high mercury content due to their environment—including swordfish, tilefish, king mackerel, shark, and shell fish.

No Soft Cheeses after Ovulation/Transfer: Avoid cheeses such as brie, feta, and anything that is creamy or unpasturized.

Why Birth Control Pills (BCP) prior to IVF?

Have you wonder why BCP is usually given in the IVF long protocol?

I've done some research and found an answer there:
http://100infertilityquestions.blogspot.com/2008/01/birth-control-pills-and-ivf-protocols.html

First, in patients who are known or suspected to be high responders, OCPs may help mitigate the risk of ovarian hyperstimulation syndrome

Second, in patients without predictable regular menstrual cycles, OCPs can be used in combination with Lupron to initiate an IVF cycle.

Third, some clinics use OCPs for microdose Lupron (MDL) flare, traditional flare, or patients who are taking Antagon in the hope that pretreatment with OCPs will prevent one follicle from growing faster than the other follicles once the stimulation has begun.

Given that prolonged OCP use can lead to oversuppression in low responders, it has to be used very carefully.

Now must try to relax and calm myself down ........

Since I've to start my IVF treatment next month, I should try to relax and calm myself down so that my hormone can be stabilised.

I must remind myself everyday and hopefully have a smooth sailing IVF journey and get pregnant soon (have a healthy prenancy and delivery healthy baby).

IVF is a very stressful journey!
Those who've gone thru it should understand what I mean.

The various stages is full of "excitement" and stress - from the initial scans, blood test, ER, ET & 2WW, pregnancy test etc ....... each time its an "heart attack" experience.

How did I manage to pass thru the stages during my previous IVF cycles?
Oh I was really ignorant then and didnt bother to read up nor check or ask the doc the scan or blood test result - just follow what they tell me to do.

I think being ignorant has its advantage, as it's less stressful.

However, as I've experienced IVF fresh cycle twice and FET once, m/c thrice, I've known too much to remain ignorant ..........

Maybe this time I should do the same by not asking any question about my follicles qty, size, blood test result etc ...........

Revised Estimated IVF Calendar

Due to the delayed Feb mens cycle, I gotta revise my IVF schedule.

The revised estimated dates in calendar:
Day 1 : Tue 16 Feb

Day 1 to Day 16 : 17 Feb to 3 Mar : Microgyon (birth control pills) x 16 days

Day 16 : Wed 3 Mar - start of lucrin + appt at KKH + Microgyon 5 days (4 to 8 Mar)
Day 30 : Wed 17 Mar - baseline scan & blooodtest (if hormone suppress ok, then to proceed stage 2 0n 19 Mar - Puregon/ Gonal F)
Day 38 : Thur 25 Mar - Start Puregon or Gonal Fe
Day 45: Thur 1 Apr - 1st Scan
Day 48 : Sun 4 Apr - 2nd scan
Day 51 : Wed 7 Apr - 3rd scan
Day 54 : Sat 10 Apr - IM pregnyl jab
Day 57 : Tue 13 Apr - ER
Day 59 : Thur 15 Apr - ET
Day 77 : Mon 3 May - pregnancy test

CD37 - Mens finally here on 16 Feb!

This morning my mens finally reported ........ wow, its 10 days late since my usual cycle is 27 days .........

I'm kind of relive that it came finally but on the other hand, am sad .........
Frankly speaking, I was hoping that I'll be lucky enough to get preggy naturally without going thru IVF ......
It was a mix feeling when I saw the blood staints .........

When I was in Ipoh, I was tempted to get the pregnancy test kit which I didn't cos I was telling myself that I'm not so lucky to strike it on my own........

Tomorrow morning I'll call KKH IVF and let them know about my mens and at the same time start my BCP tomorrow night.

I also need to re-do my IVF calendar.

Feb'10 Cycle being delayed!

I wonder what is happening but today at CD33, my mens is still not reporting yet and this is affecting my IVF progress since only upon mens report then I can take the birth control pill (CD2) and then Lucrin (CD16) ........


Since its CNY and I'm holidaying in Ipoh, I shall take it easy and enjoy the good food during my stay here .............

Happy CNY - Year of the Tiger!

I'm typing this post in Ipoh!

Yes, we're back in Ipoh for the Chinese New Year celebration.

We'd usually come back to Ipoh every year for CNY except for last year as I was preggy (2nd pregnancy) and RY didnt want me to suffer in the traffic jam or tired myself during the long journey.
Unfortunately my baby girl didnt manage to survive the 1st trimester and I did D&C on 27 Feb 2009 to remove the dead foetus .......... that day was also my wedding anniversary............

In fact CNY gives me a mix feeling, one being Happy mood since its a joyful festival but at the same time sense of lost of my beloved baby - Angelina.........
My in-laws were not aware of the 1st & 2nd pregnancy as we've never shared with them except for the 3rd one since we were in KL - I was panic of the spotting and went to local hospital to get progesterone jab.

I hope that I can leave all the unhappiness (lost of my 3 babies) behind in the Year of Ox and look forward for my baby in the Year of Tiger!

I'd like to wish all of you/ us Happy CNY and May all your/ our wishes come true!

Temp Updates

This cycle is really weird .......... on CD22 (1 Feb) till CD24 (3 Feb) my temp raise to 36.2'C, CD 25 was 36.4'C, CD 27 & 28 at 36.5 .......... this morning CD28 it drop to 36.3'C.

I think my mens should be coming this few days .......... but I do hope for a miracle .......... a miracle to be preggy naturally so that I need not go thru the IVF treatment.

IVF is a very stressful journey ..........

I shall talk about it in the next posting.

Hormone gone haywire!

Its CD21 today and my tempreature is 35.8'C!

What's wrong with me?

I showed the TCM by temp tracking and she said I dont seem to be ovulating this month.
She didnt prescribe any medicine to me this time and just asked me to monitor by temp progress.
She told me relax and not let stress affect my hormonal imbalance.

No Sign of Ovulation

Today is CD17 and I've no sign of ovulation - body temp has been constant at 36.0'C.
The mid-cycle light bleed stopped on Monday (CD15).

I'm very worried since it's unusual for me not to ovulate at this time.
My ovulation should be around CD14 and by CD12, I should be able to feel the swell around my ovary area.

Maybe I'm too stressed which contributed to my "unusual cycle".

Need to calm myself down.
Should try not to think about ovulation and TTC .........

Mid-cycle Bleeding

Yesterday was CD13 and I was shocked to see some light bleeding and it continue today.
I was rather worried so I told my TCM this morning when I did my usual Sunday accupunture.

My BBT has been rather stable at 36.2'C and no sign of increasing.

When I told her (TCM) about the low temp and light spotting, she told me it's normal for to see some mid-cycle bleeding since it's ovulation "break through" bleeding due to the hormonal change.
She said this should only last for about 2 to 3 days and after which I should be able to see some body temp change.

I shall monitor and hopefully it's like what she said and I look forward to a high body temp.

Vitamin C

I've done a quick research on the benefits of Vit C and it's impact on fertility and pregnancy.

To my horror, high dosage of Vit C may be dangerous since it may induce miscarraige and also cause cervical mucus to dry up which may make hinder in baby making .........

In my last 3 preg, I could have unknowingly consumed up to 2000mg a day ........ could this be one of the cause of my loss ............

Actual Blood Test Reading on 12 Jan'10

Yesterday I went to KKH to get my Microgynon prescription.
I was there at abut 12 noon and the crowd was gone.
The nurse who attended to me was Angeline so I asked her about my actual blood test reading on CD2 12 Jan.

I was really surprised that my FSH was 2.7 and E2 at 622.
          Pre-menopausal    Post-menopausal
FSH      1.35 - 17.06          2.42 - 147.95
E2            77 - 2382           < 37 - 103

This is a very good reading and I think my effort seems to have paid off.
I've done regular jogging, careful on my diet, take health supplements (DHEA, COQ10, Vit B etc), TCM (accu and herbs).

I've showed the test result to my TCM and she was very pleased but she think my E2 could be too high.
Anyway, she told me there's no major side effect of high E2 and told me not to be too worried.
She thinks I should be able to respond well to the puregon stimulation drug.

I'm looking forward to a smooth IVF process.

Serious revamping my blog

This morning, I took some time trying to understand the various gadgets available in the blogger and have discovered a few cool ones, for instance the counter and the Google new updates (to many season blogger, this must be basic knowledge).

I only started blogging in Aug'09 when I lost my 3rd precious bb ......... I wanted to document down what I'm going thru at that point in time and hope to be able to make a journal of my subsequent TTC journey.

After writing for about 4 mths then I start to realise that there're alot more functions available.

I must really take some time to study the functionality and also study other people's blog to understand the usage better.

I'm like a little kid, really curious about everything ........... hope to learn more things.

Phobia

This morning I told RY that I'm very worried about getting pregnant since I've had 3 miscarraiges already and not sure if I can have a successful pregnancy and bb delivery for the coming 4th try.

RY suggested that I seek some psychiarist help to take my fear away.
He also suggested that we talk to his mother and ask for her opinio on the direction.

Frankly speaking, I'm reluctant to seek MIL help as I dont want to be seen as a silly, useless & infertile DIL.

But I'm also at a loss ............
The phobia of my 3 previous losses is still haunting me ..........

God, pls give me strength to over come my fear and let me stand tall to push on ........
Pls help me and let me have a successul and smooth pregancy and delivery of my healthy & normal baby......

KKH IVF Clinic

The clinic I'm receiving fertility treatment is KKH and have been with them since 2007 and my Dr is - Dr SF Loh.

I don't think this clinic offers excellent service but I stay with them since I managed to get pregnant thrice under Dr SF Loh, so I'm hoping for a 4th miracle and this time to have a successful pregnancy and delivery of my baby (babies).

I will be on lucrin for almost 21 days, in addition to Puregon for up to16 days. 

Once my lining and folicles size and qty is right, I'll be on this HCG jab to triger ovulation for ER (Egg Retriever) and 2 days later will be ET (Embryo Transfer).

Subject to my progesterone level, I may need more progesterone jabs.

The actual schedule as follows:

Day 1 : start of menses - call KKH IVF
Day 2 - Day 16 : Microgyon (birth control pills) x 16 days
Day 16 - Day 21 : Microgyon 5 days + subcut Lucrin 10 units x 5 days Total Microgyon 21 days
Day 21 - Day 30 : subcut Lucrin 10 Units 9 days Total 14 days Lucrin - baseline scan & bloodtest for E2
Day 31 - Day 37 : subcut Lucrin 10 units x another 7 days
Day 38 - Day 44 : subcut Puregon 200 IU x 7 days + Lucrin 10 unitsDay 45 (8th day of puregon)- Day 53 (16th day of puregon): subcut Puregon + Lucrin 10 units (dosage depends on growth of follicles) - 1st scan on 8th day of puregon; 2nd scan betwen 9th -12th days; 3rd scan between 13th - 15th day. When follicles reach 16mm, STOP Lucrin. Total 16 days puregon
Day 54 : IM pregnyl at night , ER 2 days later
Day 56 : Egg Retrieval
Day 57 - Day 58 : wait for fertilisation
Day 59 : Egg transfer / balance embroyo to freezeDay 60 - Day 76 - return for progesterone blood tests (x3) - if more than 15 eggs collected, got to return for IM progesterone daily for 17 days. If less than 15 eggs collected, 4 x HCG jabs.
Day 77 : 17 days later, pregnancy test 

The estimated dates in calendar:
Day 1 : Sat 6 Feb

Day 2 to Day 16 : 7 to 22 Feb : Microgyon (birth control pills) x 16 days

Day 16 : Tue 23 Feb - start of lucrin + appt at KKH + Microgyon 5 days (23 to 27 Feb)
Day 30 : Tue 8 Mar - baseline scan & blooodtest
Day 38 : Mon 16 Mar - Start Puregon
Day 45: Tue 23 Mar - 1st Scan
Day 48 : Sat 26 Mar - 2nd scan
Day 51 : Mon 29 Mar - 3rd scan
Day 54 : Thur 1 Apr - IM pregnyl jab
Day 57 : Sun 4 Apr - ER
Day 59 : Tue 6 Apr - ET
Day 77 : Sat 24 Apr - pregnancy test

Blood Test Result on 12 Jan'10

Just received phone call from clinic that my fertility doc has reviewed by blood test result and instruct to proceed with IVF long protocol in Feb.

Long protocol means it'll take me total 6 to 8 weeks to complete the whole process.

This Saturday, I'll go to hospital to collect my conception pill prescription.

I'll post in detail the IVF schedule in the next posting.

Health Supplement that I'm taking now

Just a summary of what health supplements I've been taking.

Morning
Cordycept pills (2 tabs in the morning empty stomach) for about 2 months.

After my morning shower (about 45mins interval), DHEA 2 x 25mg (about 2 months)
Take breakfast, then take 1 tab of COQ10 (50mg - about 2 weeks) + 2 tabs of Fish Oil

Reach office and settle down then take my TCM chinese herbs

Afternoon
After lunch, take 2 tabs each of  Brands schisandra and chicken essence, 1 tab each of Vit B complex, folic acid & eye bright.
Vit C 500mg during tea time

Evening
Evening before dinner, take another tab of DHEA (25mg)

After dinner, rest for an hour then take the TCM chinese herbs. 

Do you think I'm taking alot of supplements?
I hope I've managed to space out the supplements.
I really wish that the above can help boast my fertility well being.

CD2 Blood Test

This morning I went for my CD2 blood test.

Arrived at the clinic at 7.25am and was the 1st to draw my blood.

The nurse asked me if I'm taking any chinese herbs, I told her I'm currently taking cordycept capsules.
Not sure what's my test result, I hope it's a good one.

I shall update once I know the result.

Stressed over the Dec Cycle

When I went to the TCM yesterday morning, she kept asking me if I'm very stressed at work, and my immediate response is No, in fact I've been rather free due to the festive season.

By the way, my mens came after 12pm - some brown spotting and some light flow at night.
Today, my mens is still very light and I'll go for my blood test this afternoon.

Then I think over, I'm not stressed over work, but is stressed due to the blood test to in the Jan cycle - I was instructed by the clinic to do a CD2/ CD3 blood test to to check on my FSH & E2 level.
I'm worried as not sure if DHEA or the chinese herbs have affected my FSH reading - hoping that it gives me positive impact - I need low FSH reading for this test!

I think the anxiety over the test result must have triggered by early mens - from 27 days to 26 days.

Sometimes ignorance maybe a blessing, if you dont know much then you wont be worried about certain things.

I remembered when I did my lst IVF in March 2008, I was ignorant about the procedure and only did per instruction of the doc and nurse ......... at that time was pretty stress free and my blood test result was pretty ok.
Then the 2nd IVF cycle in Nov 2008, again it was a bliss since I didnt research much.

Come this 3rd IVF cycle in Feb 2010, I'm not sure if I'll be under any stress since I've read up quite alot and is worried about my aging body's performance.......  
 
Maybe I shouldn't ready too much about fertibility related and hopefully I can pull it thru like I did in 2008 .......

Browsing through the Blogs

Yesterday was a quiet day in the office and I was rather free so I browsed thru the blogs of the many strangers in this cyber space and I came across a couple of really nice ones - a father who share every moment of his child's lives and mothers who document down the growing up of their precious babies and the cooking recipe.

I was really happy reading thru those blogs and is hoping that one day I can do the same too .......

But right now, I can only blog about my cycles days, TCM, health supplements ......... when can I advance to sharing my baby joy?
I'm getting impatient for that day to come.

God pls help me to remain calm and saint in my mind and not get crazy .............

Temp drop on CD23 (8 Jan, Fri)

I think is Dec cycle is a no hope for me since my body temp drop from 36.6'c on CD22 to 26.3'c on CD23 and today CD24, my temp is 36.2'c.

Yesterday upon detection of the low temp I was hoping its a "one-off" incident and is hopeful for a high temp today.
Too bad it just remain low today and it seems like its a no hope to be preggy this time ......... looks like my mens will report on Tue since it'll be CD27.

I'm very sad ...........

On the Jan cycle CD 2/ 3, I'll be going to the hospital to do blood test to measure my FSH & E2 level to prepare for the Feb IVF treatment.

Dec'09 Cycle

I'm quite hopeful to get pregnant this month since my fertile period falls during the festive season (X'mas and New Year) and RY was in mood to try.

Come next Tue 12 Jan, I'll know if I'll be preg since it'll be CD27 .........

Yesterday Monday was the 1st day of school for most of SG education instituions and it was raining heavily in the morning.

I was thinking the rain could have inconvenient many kids as they may get wet (just like siew mun zai).
I was thinking if there is this day that I'm seeing my kid to school, I'll let him/ her wear slipper & t-shirts/ shorts and bring his school uniform and shoes as well as towel to school to let him change once he reach school ...........
Then the child will not be wet or catch cold.

God, pls help me and let me be pregnant!
I'll be a good mother to my children.

Why RY Raised his voice over the socks and TV?

Before we left for Ipoh last week, I've done some laundry and hang RY's washed socks on the hanger which I also hung my jeans to dry.

I've placed it nearer to the window knowing that RY doesnt like his socks to be trapped amongst the pile of clothes for dry.
Since I know we'll only keep the clothes after a week when we come back from Ipoh trip, I thought it should be ok.

2 days ago when RY kept the clothes, he saw his socks hung in the hangar together with my jeans, he was so furious and he shouted at me.

I was very upset, why he get so angry over a pair of socks ........

Yesterday, TCS 5 showed old MJ concert and we watched for awhile (after our Toro sashimi dinner).
But we both went to have our bath and off the TV (I used the bathroom in the bedroom while RY used the one in living room).
As I finished my bath earlier then RY, I went to turn on the TV to watch TCS 8 and RY upon hearing that the TV is on, he asked me to turn to TCS 5.
I told him, I'll let him have the TV once he's done with his bath and come to living room, which I did.

Once he came to the living room, he shouted at me for being inconsiderate since he wanted to "listen" to MJ's songs.
I told him, I went for my bath 10 mins earlier then him and he could have kept the TV on and no when I've finished my bath and turned it on then he quickly aksed for his MJ's channel.

He got so angry that he went to his study room and slam the door shut.

I'm really hurt, how could he get so upset and raised his voice at me over a pair or socks and a TV programme?
Are they more important then me?

Sometime, it make me wonder if we should stay married ..............
If I'm being inconsiderate

Anti-aging Supplements

I forgot to update that I've bought the DHEA on line from iHerb and only cost me about SGD45/= for 4 bottles of 21st Century brand @ 90 tabs per bottle.

I've been taking 3 tabs for about a month and realise that my skin is getting oilier now.
I got zips on my chin and lips areas and my hair get really oily after 12 hours of washing.

Last week I also started this COQ10 supplement from Blackmore - 1 tab in the morning.
I've paid SGD88.50 for 2 bottles and there's 60 tabs per bottle.
COQ10 is supposed to help in heart functioning and cell repair.
I checked that Blackmore Conceive Well Gold supplement has this COQ10 60mg in it, so i guess it should be important in fertility enhancement.

I'm hoping that by taking such anti-aging supplements, I can improve my fertility.

In 2 weeks time, I'll be doing FSH blood test and not sure if it'll show good level.
Pls wish me good luck!

Happy New Year 2010!

Happy New Year!
I wish a Better year then last and hope that all of our dreams and wishes can come true (my dream of being a Mummy can materlise)!

Yesterday 1 Jan 2010, we started the day by bring mum to Guan Ying Temple in Bugis to pray then we went to Red Star for Dim Sum breakfast.

RY brought me to Beach Road for Bak Kuet Teh for lunch and then we went to Iluma and Bugis Junction to shop.
We also went to Orchard since RY wanted to go to Borders.
As it was 1st day of the year, Isetan had imported big Tuna fresh from Japan.
I'd bought some sushi and sashimi as our New Year dinner.
RY was upset that I've paid > SGD100/= on the fishes.
It was really tasty but we cant finish so we send some to mum for her to sample.

This morning, we brought mum to another Guan Ying Temple in River Valley - Ju Shi Ling.
We had intended to have our vegeterian breakfast there (FOC food is served in this temple daily), but as it was too early, the food is not prepared yet, so RY drove us to Hong Lim food centre.
Most of the stalls were not opened and we ended eating very lousy prawn noodles from this stall call Ah Hui Big Prawn Noodles.
It was lousy and cost us $4 per bowl.

Now we're home R&R and RY is ready news papaer while I'm updating my blog.

What do I want for X'mas and Bday?

Ry asked me waht do I want for my bday and I told him "nothing" but deep in my heart I was yelling for a Baby.

Today on our drive back from Ipoh, there was a thick fog and I was telling RY that god is coming down to earth to give us a baby ..........

I wish to have a baby ...........
God, Pls grant me my wish ............

Ipoh during X'mas

On 24 Dec, we went to Ipoh for a short vacation to visit RY's parents.

The custom in both SG & MY at 2nd link were very clear and we pass through swiftly.
Traffic on the hiway was ok too except for the stretch nearing KL is abit congested.

We arrived Ipoh on 24 Dec 6.30pm and we thought we'd arrived at about 8pm since we set-off from SG at 1pm.

We went to near by cze cha place for x'mas eve dinner with the whole family (RY's younger brother and sister came back from KL for the festive holiday too).
His sister has 3 young and beautiful daughters, they are very adorable too.

On X'mas day, RY's parents tah pau some hawker food for our breakfast and lunch, RY brought me to the famous Hong Tou restaurant  in old Ipoh town for the prawn mee hoon.
The RU brought me to Funny Mountain for the nice beancurd and also bought some local snack for my family.
Dinner was home cooked meal prepared by FIL.

After dinner, we went to GV for movie - Avatar.

On Saturday, we went to Yoke Fook Moon for dim sum breakfast.
Lunch was hor fun and mee hoon at YMCA and we went to Secret Recipe for desserts.
Dinner was at this new restaurant called Hoi Seng, the pork ribs was really tasty - its like our Kong Bah Pao

On Sunday, it was some hawker food breakfast and lunch was home cooked pasta.
Dinner we went to Move n Peak for steamboat buffet.

We left for SG on Monday morning at 7am and arrived at 12.15pm and had lunch at Jurong West.
Then RY send me to office since I only applied half day leave - arrive office at 1pm.

This trip in Ipoh is basically eat,  sleep & watch TV as we hardly go out.
The only outdoor activity I did was morning jog and playing with neighbours' doggies.

The 1st corner house has 2 golden retriever and a beagle and the house next to PIL is a mongrel.

Ipoh is a laid back town and is an ideal place for retirement ..........
I think I'll retire there............

Christmas Gift 2009

This year I've bought little cute musical bear for all the girls in my company and there're 15 of them and for the guys, I've bought some christmas candies/ chocolate for them to consume in the pantry.
As I thought most of them will be on vacation during the x'mas week, I've distributed the gift early on 18 Dec (Fri).
To my surprise, this week, the colleagues give me x'mas gifts in return.
I've given with no intention of receiving  and this is really a surprise.
Now my desk is full of the x'mas gift display.

What should I give nest year?
I've one year to ponder over it ...........

Mery X'mas!

Today is X'mas eve and the office is very relax ............
The office has declared half day so alot of people come to work since if you apply leave, it gotta be a full day instead of half a day off.

This morning, a colleague bought us free vegeterian breakfast - fried carrot cake, roti prata, mee hoon & bao........
At about 10am, we celebrated birthday for one of the girl as her actual bday falls on x'mas eve..........
We had chocolate cake and some desset wine.

Now, I'm just sitting in the office surfing internet to wait for RY to come fetch me to go Ipoh ........

Yes, we're driving off to Ipoh in an hour's time ............

I'd like to wish everybody a Merry X'mas and Happy Holiday!

RY's Birthday on 22 Dec

This year RY's bday falls on Tue and its also the "Dong Zhi" festival.

We didnt do anything much, except for the lunch in Swensen's at IMM.
I ordered a Fish & Chips while he had a pasta.
Of course we also have our free Firehouse ice-cream and stickly chewy chocolate which come as free side for the main course.
I gave a ang bao to RY for his bday gift, I'd made a mistake in the amount.
I had wanted to give him $2888, instead I put in $2988 ......... well a hundred dollar more for him.

We went back to mum's place for dinner and mummy cooked a lot of food.
We also had the tang yuen which symbolised reunion ............

Its a simple day but I think its very warm and nice since we're with our loved ones.
I hope to be able to spend this special day with RY the rest of my lives .............

TCM Updates

I've been seeing this TCM for about 2 months.
I wonder if my general health being have improved ...........but my mens seem to improve since the flow is more.

It's really expensive to undergo TCM treatment, on average, each week it cost me S$95 and it consists of 40 min accupunture and medication for 1 week.

On top of the TCM treatment, I also take DHEA (3 tabs a day @ 25mg per tab).

After my Beijing trip, I was rather weak.
I got flu attack 2 weeks ago and then last week, I got fever.
My tempreature fluctuated like a yo-yo, on CD12, I was 37'C then dropped to 36.3 on CD13 then rose to 36.5'C from CD14 toCD16 then rise to 36.7'C on CD17 to CD18.
On CD19 it went up to 37.6'C and dropped till 36.2 the next day.
Subsequently on CD21 went up to 36.5'C and then CD24 rose to 36.7'C for 2 days.

I hope this high temp can substain as long as possible ............ I really hope to me preg .............

Birthday Celebration on 11 Dec (Fri)

When I was younger, I enjoyed having group of friends' companny or eating expensive dinner and receiving present would make me happy.

Last month, RY asked me what do I want for this year's birthday.
I told him "nothing" and told him I dont want any expensive gift nor dinner.

Last Thurs evening, RY gave me a surprise by giving me a bouquet of roses and the next day, he came to my office take me out to lunch at Swensen.
As it's my actual day of birthday, the restaurant gave me a free Firehouse ice-cream.
RY sang me a birthday song when the ice-cream was presented to me after the main course was finished.
He gave me a red packet (ang pao) as present.

Then in the eveing, we went to mum's place for some home cooked dinner.
RY surprised me by bringing me a cake to mum's place and together with mum, sis & brother, they celebrated this happy day with me.

I was very happy on my birthday (its really simple and quiet).
Simplicity is Beautiful!

Next week (22 Dec) will be RY's birthday and I wonder what should I do for him since its a Tuesday ..............
I shall update next week.

Back from Beijing

Back from Beijing last Wed 25 Nov.
Arrived SG airport on Wed 6am and reach home at about 7.30am.

First thing I did was to unpack my luggage and throw out dirty clothes for laundry.
Then wash up went and rested till 9.30am and off to work.

I can only described this trip with 2 words "Cold" & "Tired"........

Beijing is really cold and fortunately we've brought sufficient clothing to keep us warm.

First day (Fri), arrived Beijing airport at 11pm and check into hotel for the night - Wang Fy Jing Grand.

2nd day, we went to Yah Shui market for the tour mates to buy winter jacket since some didnt bring the right clothing for the cold weather.
RY get to buy a fake Timberland shoes for RMB160 (orignal price was RMB480).
Then we proceed to Tian An Men Square and then to Forbidden City.

3rd day, we went to Great Wall of China - Ju Yong Guan ........

4th day, we went to Temple of Heaven, as well as shopping in Xiu Shui Market amd 5th day was to Summer Palace.
RY bought 4 small bottles of china wine - Er Wo Tou for RMB3 each (56% alcohol content which is really potent).

We get to sample Peking Duck from Quan Ju De chinese restaurant, which I dont think is as good as those from SG.
It cost RMB 196 for additional serving of duck.

It was a nice trip since the tour mates were my colleagues - total 56 paxs.
But I dont think I'd like to visit Beijing again in the near future............ as I think got other better destinations awaiting for my discovery .........

Beijing Tour

I'll be leaving for Beijing tomorrow for 5 day tour!

I look forward to a beautiful weather and a wonderful holiday ..........

I'll share more about my trip when i come back next Wed.

Pregnant Colleague

My colleagues has shared with me that she's been pregnant for about 3 months and she's very troubled over her pregnancy since it'll be her 2nd child and she's not prepared to receive this baby now, so she's planning to abort it.

I'm very sad ......... while she's pregnant for 3 months, I've lost mine for the same period too (I did my D&C in end Aug).

She took leave today to go to the gynae to check if she's really preggy.

Here I'm trying my best to get pregnant and she's hoping that she's not.


How I wish I'm pregnant now .........
God, pls answer to my prayer to be pregnant and deliver my healthy & notmal baby to this world ........... pls take pity on me and grant me my wish...........

DHEA

Last Sat we went to gynae for a follow-up visit.
The doc has decided on 3rd fresh IVF cycel for me to commence in Feb 2010.

From my prior experiences, I know I cant harvest many eggs so I asked the doc if he has any plan for me.
He suggested that I take this anti-aging supplement call DHEA which may help.

He has given me a prescription to get from the hospital but its up to me if I want to take it.

I've done some research on the internet regarding this DHEA supplement and it's only selling at USD6 per bottle (90 capsule 25mg).
I'm contemplating getting this from the website but is waiting till I come back from my beijing trip.

On the other hand, I'm still hopeful to get preggy naturally .........

Crying for my babies ..........

I was crying in the shower last Saturday.
The thought of the tough journey I'd been thru to get myself pregy thrice is very heart drenching .........

I missed my 3 babies ........ they didnt even get the chance to be borned to this wonderful world.

Last Sat, RY brought me to nature walk and it was nice to see familes with kids enjoying quality time together.
I was hoping that I can bring my own kids (together with RY) to enjoy the fresh air and scenary in the nature park - it'll be picture perfect..

God, kindly answer to my prayer to let me have my healthy baby born to this world.
I'll be a good mommy ......... pls listen to my prayer.......

Sad to know that my friend is at stage 4 cancer ...........

I just knew from my friend that an ex-school mate cum ex-colleagues is at stage 4 cancer ..........
I read her blog and see that she's currently fighting hard to stay alive to be with her family .......

She's a real warrior and I wish her all the best!

aibeejourney.blogspot.com

Take care, my friend ........

Update on 21 Mar 2010
My friend has passed away just before CNY in Feb ..........

Beijing - here I come!

In 2 weeks time, RY and myself will go to Beijing for a 5 day tour with my compay.

Today at the TCM, I over heard Dr and her patients' conversation (a young couple who is going to Beijing next week) and Dr was recommending them to eat mutton shabu shabu (shuan yang rou) at the most well known restaurant there called "Lao Song Shun".

She also reminded them to bring long john for the great wall climb since it rather chilly up there.

I've benefited from this conversation.
I'll do the same ...............

When did I ovulate?

I'm really confused over my exact ovulation date........

Believe it or not, I can "feel" my ovary swollen pre-ovulation .........
Some how got a strange feeling at the adobement neat to the ovaries on CD12.
Also on CD12, I can see that I've more cervical mucus.
Today is my CD15 and I dont have the "swollen" feeling but there's still some strange feeling there.

5 start taking my body tempreature since CD2 and was 36.2'C till CD11 and on CD12, I was 36.5'C, which lasted till CD14, but today it went down to 36.3'C.

I went to the TCM this morning and informed her about my observation.
She said the temp of 36.5'C is no good as it should be 37'C then considered ideal.
She think that the sudden dip in temp could mean that my ovulation will be this 2 days, but I thought I should have ovulated on CD12?

She prescribed "lu rong" (deer antler) to mee as she wants to improve my body temp.

Since CD9, RY had been very "cooperative" and "hardworking" as we've been turning to bed early to try ...........
Being a health freak, I'd love to go running but as I'm preggy hopeful, I've decided not to go running for 2 weeks.
So yesterday, instead of running, RY brought me to do some nature walk.

Happy Halloween 2009

This year was the my first time celebrating Halloween, well not exactly celebrating, but it was the first time I went to a "commercialise" area to feel the "Halloween air" .........

Last Sat 31 Oct, Jas had invited Est, myself and Jo to clarke quay for dinner cum lancing ......
We met up at The Pump Room in Clarke Quay.

As I've no appetite for western cuisine, I had dinner with RY in a Thai restaurant in Upp Bt Timah.
It was raining cats and dogs and the restaurant was rather empty ......... but there's a group of "ang moh" family who really put on efforts to dress up for the occassion.  The children was wearing the red illuminated  devil horms ..........

RY suggested that I get one of those horns for myself to wear at Clarke Quay.
I'd rejected as I didnt want to look silly.

RY sent me to clarke quay and went off as he didnt like to noisy pubs .......

It was an eye opener to see alot of people dressing to the theme ............ some dressed up as vampire, wearewolves, witches, wonder women and chinese ghosts (in cheong sum or the qing dynasty costume)........... good efforts ......... There was jam band playing in the outdoor, as well as best dress competition, oh the mc for the event was Glen Ong.

We just sat at the table (outside the restuarant) to people watch for amost 2 hours before we decided to get into the Pump Room to see what's happening inside.
But it was boring and we decided to go outside to see the more happening crowd.


We left the place at about 1am.

It was an unforgetable night and we're thinking what to dress up as for 2010 Halloween!